A creative life

Why is it when work needs to be done my creativity comes flooding back after being missing for about three years! i want to finish my 20 odd novels i've started, i want to draw an epic comic book with dragons, fairies and demons, i want to film a load of comedy skits for my you-tube channel, i want to work on my music and i want to paint and draw and make things.

This is turning in to a rambling but sometimes things need to be said. The future terrifies me because i always image having to work 24/7 just to keep my head above water in this world. Never having time for creative things for me is like living in a black hole. i know there are times i need to stick my head down and put in the boring monogamous work but i want creativity in my life.